On My Way To A Healthier Day

I do a lot of my contemplation and self reflection in the car. I think that stems from the extended amounts of time I have spend in the car over the last few years. Driving 45 min one way to work will give a girl some serious time to soul search. Well today was no different. As I was driving, I was mulling over all the changes I have been wanted to make, but for one reason or another haven't yet. And I realized how different the last few months have been compared to...well the last 10 years of my life. I made a huge decision a few months ago that has jump started this massive change for me. But I will leave that sorted tale for another post...You're welcome. LOL I realized that 2016 is going to be a very different year. And I am so excited about it. So I have decided to stick to my goal of documenting my life here. 

I wanted to be able to look back at my journey. This post is the start of my journey back to a healthy me. I have really let stress, life and many other factors hinder my health, specifically letting myself get fat. It gas been quite a journey let me tell you. And I know it was a lot more fun to abuse my body, with all things bad for me then it will be to transition to a healthy lifestyle, but it needs to happen...badly. With the help and encouragement of a very dear friend, and after watching her journey to a healthier her I am inspired. So, I went out and bought some new shoes and workout gear, downloaded the MyFitnessPal app, got a gym membership and got rid of all the unhealthy food in my house. I know this is all just the beginning of making a real lifestyle change. Now my goal is not to be some body builder or ever be a size 2. I really juat want to be healthier. I will continue to post about all the good, the bad, and the ugly along the way. Stay tuned. 

And this ER nurse turned photog could not document anything without a few photos. So here I am! And of course 1 photo of all my new workout gear!

January 2016-What's Plaquing Me

The first week of this new year is coming to and end. I've decided to write on this blog as often as I can...about all the things I'm thinking, feeling, dealing with and going through.

Everyone that knows me, knows that I've always been kinda sickly. If there are germs around, they find there way into my body. Well for the last 6 weeks or so, I have had a terrible respiratory illness plaguing me and wreaking havoc on my body. Being sick for so long is weighing heavily on my psyche. It's seriously making me depressed. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired...Literally. I have reached my breaking point. I'm a terrible patient. I always have been. I don't like doctors or hospitals. Go figure right?! Cuz I work in health care and I'm surrounded by them all day long. But it's different when I am the patient. And for this reason I have no primary Doctor.
So I have had to resort to another provider to help me with this plague. I am now on steroids daily and albuterol nebulizer treatments. But let me tell you, the side effects are wicked bad. The treatments give me the jitters so bad that I can't even sit still. And the steroids cause excessive sweating. After the first dose I had to take 2 showers and change my jammies 3 times in 6 hours. It's really kinda pitiful...

Here...judge for yourselves...Hopefully I can overcome this sickness soon...

Is It Still The 1950's?! Cuz I Thought It Was 2016...

I figured why not start out 2016 with a post that is designed for exactly what my blog is titled to be about. So here it goes, my first rant of the new year. I woke up early this morning, and started my day as I usually do...scrolling through Facebook. I came across a very interesting post by one of my friends. Her post definitely sparked some anger inside me. So I feel the need to rant. Here is the facebook post from my friend Jackie: "Tonight I was told that women don't belong in the fire service, and by another woman. Usually I don't make huge deals about things like that... But I've worked my ASS off to get where I'm at. I've gone through paramedic school being the only female in the class and having to prove that I've EARNED the spot I fought for. I've gone through the fire academy with 16 people and 13 of those people happen to be men. I've proven myself, maybe more than other with how dedicated I am to this service. And I know quite a few other woman who are strong, amazing, and dedicated woman that have accomplished this and much more. I have proven myself OVER AND OVER again being a firefighter. To have someone tell me I don't belong in the career I have successfully dedicated my life to is UNACCEPTABLE. I'm making the clear that no matter what you wanna do... It's Not something you can never accomplish. You put your mind to something you will definitely be able to achieve your goal. I know I did. And I'm pursing that goal even further. Never let hurtful words decipher who you are or what you should do. Because that's exactly what they are is words. If there's anything 2015 taught me, it's that I'm always gunna be the bigger better person and that I don't need negativity like that in my life. So goodbye to that unrealistic attitude and hello 2016. I've been looking forward to you." I felt the need to comment immediately. Here's what I had to say "F*** that girl. Its bitches like her that give women in general a bad name. This is not 1950. U are amazing and deserve what u worked so hard for. Don't let the ignorant opinion of a stereotypical dumb broad bring u down. And when her house is on fire or she needs a medic, she better pray for a public servant as amazing as you. Cuz in her time of need she'll be begging for someone like you to save her miserable self. Next time some sexest bitch says anything to you, you tell them that jealousy is an ugly color on her and that she's only jealous that you are part of a boys club she only wishes she was strong enough to be a part of. Ur the coolest chick I know. I couldn't do what you do. Keep doin ur thing! #JealousBitches #DontGiveThemTheTimeOfDay #BitchIsLuckyIWasntThere" For anyone that knows my friend Jackie, they know that she is one of the most dedicated, hard working, badass chicks ever. Jackie's post talks about being the bigger person. And she always is. She has much more grace that I could ever hope to have. I can honestly say I've never had to deal with anything like Jackie must have to on a regular basis. I can't even begin to imagine how she handles comments and stupid opinions like that. But I have to say that dumb b**** was lucky I wasn't there. Because it's situations like that where I have absolutely no problem telling it like it is. It's been said "When you're dealing with pigs, sometimes you gotta roll around in the mud. That conversation would have gone as follows "Oh honey did you mean to say that out loud?! And what's that all over your upper lip? Oh it must be the haterade that you've been guzzling. Let me just tell you somethin' sweetie, jealousy is a very ugly color on you. So why don't you take your sexist, ignorant opinion back to 1950 where it belongs." I'm still trying to figure out where an uneducated opinion against your own gender even comes from. At the end of the day though, I think Jackie has the right idea. Ignoring stupid people, bettering yourself, continuing to grind, and accomplishing your goals is the best way to be. "The best revenge against haters is to live well." So, to all those women living and thriving in a man's world...Keep that shit up! Cuz, y'all are my heros!

Another New Year...

I have not visited my blog for a very long time. But as I come back to it at the beginning of a new year, I've noticed at the end of each year that I make a bucket list for the next year, that I inevitably ignore. I have wanted to revive my blog for the last few years but as you can see I have failed. So for 2016 I've decided to do things a little differently. There will be no bucket list, but more a chronicle of all the things that are happening. So here's hoping to changing it up will help me be more successful this year. Cheers!

New Year, New Me...-That's What We All Say Right?! But I Mean It!

     I want to hit the ground running for 2015, so I'm starting my blog resurrection 2 days early! I decided that I am going to write any time I am inspired, or just need to get my thoughts out there. Well today I was inspired. I want to try to be more positive in my life. I hear and see myself having a bad attitude and losing my filter on the things I say. I want to change that. I plan on thinking before I say and do things. When someone's attitude changes for the better and things don't stress a person out so easily their life will change drastically for the better. They say you can't change others or their behavior, you can only change yours and how you react to situations. I want to greet the world with a glass half full approach from now on. I want to harness the power of positive thinking.

I will definitely still rant form time to time, Don't worry!

    

2015 Bucket List

Well folks, I was a miserable failure last year with my bucket list. So I am once again at year's end and I am looking forward to 2015.

"I never make New Year's Resolutions. I do however make a bucket list of things I would like to accomplish or change about myself and my life. I try really hard in my life to better myself and to always learn and grow."-Written by me last year but it fits this year again. I will be adding to this list as I am inspired. I have kept some of the same goals, given up on some in order to add a few more. Stay tuned and watch my year unfold!

So here it is:

1. No call in at work for 6 months.

2. I really want to turn blogging into a weekly occurrence. So I plan to start using this blog to share the everyday musings and commentary I have on life.

3. Bi-Monthly manicures, with blog posts/pictures.

4. Every 3-4 months I would like to do individual girls nights with Both my SILs, my mommy, Steph.

5.Try a new hair style and different theatrical make-up attempt once a week with a blog/pictures.

6. Visit somewhere I've never been every 3-4 months.

7. Read a new book every month.

8. Learn at least 3 new skills ie sewing, painting etc.

9. Work 1 extra shift/month.

10. Decorate for every holiday.

Virtual Courage

I was just involved in the all too familiar Facebook argument. So I decided to resort back to the place I feel like I am me and can just write about anything I want without interruption. So here it is folks...My first post since January. I feel the need to "Rant" if you will (as the title of my beloved blog states) about an issue I'm sure none of the creators and inventors of social media and smart phone/technology could have foreseen. I must first point out that my smart phone is one of my treasured possessions. Without it and the technology behind it and social media I would never be able to stay in touch with so many people I care about. But with that being said, I must point out some of the negative developments brought on by all this technology. As I troll FB and Instagram and all the other forums there are it seems to be overrun with people that run their mouths and spew nonsense just because all of a sudden in the last 10 years there has been an explosion of platforms giving them the ability and ease of which to talk shit with no repercussions. Allow me to elaborate. I notice more and more how people seem to have this NO FEAR mentality as they hide behind their computer or smart phone screens and privacy settings. Some individuals type anything and everything including all the shit they would never say in person. People have developed courage to boldly and often times recklessly run their mouths. It disgusts me that so many low-lifes think it is ok to be vicious and hateful and find solace in the lack of actual instead of virtual consequences. So from now on I am a mere audience member to the shit show that is social media drama.