My Frustration Is Overflowing

Well, I've decided that this blog right here is the perfect outlet for all the not so nice things I would like to post on FB or say in response to some folks and their continued attack on me. I am trying to be a good person and turn the other cheek. Thus far I have only responded with silence. Instead of throwing rocks back at them, I will try to remain graceful so I'm just gonna post here.

Here is my first installment...Don't judge me.

Team Juli

Well, it's been a few months...and I feel bad that the new man in my life has yet to make an appearance on my beloved blog. I'm even sorrier that this is the reason for his debute. But this is a topic I cannot help but write about. I was sitting with him tonight and I thought I would explode if I wasn't able to get this out...
Let me preface this whole post with Adam is amazing. He is everything I could ever ask for in a partner. That's why the reason for this post is so hard...
Soooo there's another woman...Allow me to explain. My new bf is friends, yes JUST friends with his ex wife. When I came into this relationship he was totally upfront about this fact. I thought it was odd, but I wanted to start this relationship with an open mind. I even thought maybe we could all be friends. Well, let me tell you, she has slammed the door shut on that idea all together. My problem now lies in the fact that she hates me and is constantly running her mouth to him. I have tried and tried to remain graceful in this whole thing. That is a feat in itself because for most if my life I would not have hesitated to fire back and sling some mud right at her. But recently I have been making some serious changes in myself including trying to be a better person than I've been in the past. So I have allowed this woman to continue to drag my name through the mud without any retaliation. The thing I'm trying to learn at this time, and with my new outlook is, when is enough, enough?! When does it go from turning the other cheek, to standing by and allowing someone to disrespect you?! I'm trying to find that line. And I'm really struggling with it. In the mean time my bf continues to be friends with this girl. Don't get me wrong, he defends me when she runs her mouth. But their whole relationship makes me really uncomfortable for the sole reason that she is acting the way she is acting. I would have no issue with them being friends if I didn't think she was blatantly trying to come between us. The worst part is, its not like she even wants him back, she just doesn't want me to have him.  My biggest fear is that she will succeed in driving a wedge between us and I'm trying everything I can to keep it from happening. He and I have an amazing relationship. We have open and honest communication. There is a certain level of trust between us that, because of my past, is not afforded to many, or very easily. Trusting anyone is really hard for me, it always has been. But I trust him. Now, that's a whole other blog in itself. And thus far in this crazy 3 way fight I have done a great job of keeping him out of the middle of it. I would never ask him to choose between us because I would never want him to give me an ultimatum like that. But due to her actions I think he will inevitably have to chose a team. I hope he chooses TEAM JULI. I never wanted it to be this way and I need him to know that. I guess that's the reason I haven't attacked her back. But silence is a very difficult response in this situation. So this is the reason I have taken my frustration here. I'm sure there will be many follow up posts about this, but for now, I feel better.